Hej everybody!
Sorry for the lack of posts...Actually I started writing a loooong post about current affairs (the death of a famous politician [Haider] in my homecountry and other stuff like that) but somehow I never finished it...
Anyway, here's a fresh new post...Actually I can't write much, because there's not much to tell.
I feel a bit weird at the moment...I got up quite early today to get started with my master thesis. My goal for today was to find the topic I want to write about and after some thinking and researching I found the topic I really want to do. Now I have to write an Exposé to give to the professor...I started writing it, but I need to do some more research, especially about literature. And I have some more questions about all the stuff, so I need to contact the university this week... Anyway, I also did a timetable with deadlines...I want to be finished with all the annoying bureaucracy in late november, which means that I could start working on my thesis in december..if everything goes well.
Sounds fine, doesn't it? But it's also scary, because I really don't know what I want to do with my life. Until now I always had a "plan" for some years. Back at school I wanted to succeed at the A-Levels and go studying...After I had achieved that, I wanted to be a good student and go abroad for 1 or 2 semesters. Well, as most of you know, I did that. After coming back from Sweden my planning started to get a bit "dizzy". Of course the goal for the next few months is writing my master thesis, but afterwards? I have no idea.
Right now I'm doing an internship, which means I work a lot and I have my daily routines. But when I think of doing that/living like that for the rest of my live I get scared. I'm 22, in my mid-late-early 20s, which means I have (hopefully) many many maaaany years to look forward to. But do I really want to sit in the office from 10-6 for the rest of my life? This is what makes me scared. On the one hand I'm the kind of person who feels better if everything's planned and secured. I want a job, I don't want to live day by day and see what's going to happen. On the other hand, the thought of doing what I do now for the rest of my life, makes me scared. By saying "doing what I'm doing now" I certainly know that I will change work. I won't stay in the company I'm doing my internship - but who knows what will happen next. Maybe I will write my master thesis in munich, working part time for the company...but I really don't know what I should do afterwards.
So, you see, I'm missing a plan. :P
Other than that and the master thesis, my life is OK right now. Munich is OK, I got used to it and the bavarians, but I still don't enjoy it that much. Munich is really not my favourite place to be, but maybe this will change some day. I don't have enough time to really hang out with people and I guess that's an important reason for feeling uncomfortable in munich.
Anyway, that's it for now...
bye
m.
